my back aches.my thighs want to drop.my feet hurt.my eyes are super dry.but i've never felt more alive!pain tells you that you are alive and kicking.PAIN IS LIFE.god,thats so sadistic.

but seriously.when you're sweating.your breath is short and laboured.blood is pumping so hard in your ears that it's one of the few things that you can hear.your heart is practically leaping out of your chest.are you not glad for that?for life.i love that feeling.of adrenaline.
FEEL THE LIFE IN YOUR VEINS.its not going to be there forever.

yes.i know i've been playing basketball and soccer everyday for the past.err.10days?
you'd expect me to be drop dead tired.but i find that i can just keep going and going and going..
i will stop if you ask me to okay?

ITS IN 2 DAYS. OH MY GOD!(yes i am freaking out if you cant NOTICE).
yup.48 hours.damn.its scaring me shitless.okay.thats an exaggeration.fellow batch mates.you probably have the same thoughts running thru your head as me so i'm not going to waste my time typing it out.
here's my 2cents worth.
STOP THINKING BAD THOUGHTS.why the hell would you put yourself down for?i find it damn lame.you think that you're not good enough.then you get sad.THEN you try to find good points in yourself to make yourself feel better. -.-
don't waste your brain cells.nip it in the bud.
ask yourself,
whether you (be honest to yourself about this.you must face yourself with the answer),
have done your absolute VERY best for your O'levels.
Do not make excuses.
you're the one whose living with yourself for the rest of your life.so why not be honest to yourself if not to the world?
did you sneak in some time while studying to watch people joke with each other when you're supposed to be looking at question 7 for a maths riverside paper?-raises hand- guilty as charged.
Did you make an excuse that you're too stressed out and you need time to destress so you decide to play sports or game for 3-4 hours? -raises hand- guilty as charged
Did you contend yourself with the fact that you already did one whole paper on a certain subject ahead of schedule so you could slack for the rest of the time instead of doing extra work?
-raises hand- damn it.this is embarassing.

the list of questions go on and on.there are a million and one excuses i could make to make myself feel better yknow.but there is probably a billion and two to show you how you could do better.i'm not interested in hearing what you did in attempt to prepare for O's.what i'd rather hear is what you DID NOT do in your preparation.at least you could learn a thing or two.
face it.
BOTTOM LINE..
if you don't think you're up to par.it's your damn fault.
here's a conversation that shows how many excuses humans can make.
"my teacher sucks la!he/she cant teach at all lor!"
there is more then 1 teacher of each subject.why not approach them?
"but i dunno all the other teachers what!so paiseh want to approach them.."
well you probably have friends from other classes who are doing better then you.what about them?
"they keep studying la.want to ask them also later they will just say they busy.."
how do you know?turned psychic did you?they'll learn by teaching too yknow.
"don't crazy la.ask them also i wont understand"
this is the point where i'll just roll my eyes and walk away.

is this you?did you make excuses?

i did.yes i did.i admit.i probably could have worked harder.heck.i SHOULD have worked harder.then i wont be so scared right now.if i fail on monday.i will accept that failure.it is my fault.no one else's.its my name on that cert.it is my burden.i did not do my best.i know.i've always known actually.but i kept making excuses.
but if i did do well.woah!

nonetheless.
GOOD LUCK TO ALL YTSS BATCH OF

2008 FOR

YOUR UPCOMING RESULTS.
we'll do the school proud.i've got that tingly feeling.heh.if we're to cry.lets cry tears of joy yeah.
and if you need somebody to blow off some steam on or a shoulder to cry on.i'm here.
okay,i might seem like an ass after what i just wrote but thats what i think to myself so..i'm an ass to myself?haha.
i'm kinder to friends. =D


Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it's late at night you can look inside
You won't feel so alone.
-light on,David cook.
for you and for all my friends.